No Solace

~No Solace


That shadow haunts my dreams
Beating me down
No matter how hard I fight
It appears to be - it seems
Like falling sound
I can hear with my sight

That falling sound is me
My screams, my crying out
Breaking away, broken apart
Disintegrating - completely
I'm swallowed in doubt
With a bleeding heart

I try to hide it inside
Bury it sixty feet beneath
My fragile surface
I crumble - I've died
I smile hollowly, just to breathe
To endure this

I'm petrified, solidified in fear
Everywhere I go
In everything I feel
I live in this mask - this veneer
So no one will know
What's real

This smile shadows my fear
As I shiver in this emptiness
This hollow shell I call my skin
Because this isn't living - here
In this loneliness, this abyss
I grow cold, my light dim

I greet death in my dreams
Each time he invades my sleep
Plagued by this fear, this cloud
I'm losing who I am - so it seems
Whether I smile, or weep
I still see this sound